I am beginning to see a pattern in my life. I tend to be utterly moved by a good book or movie, and tonight is not an objection. I have just finished watching the movie "Pride and Prejudice." It is most certainly a movie that is not to be watched unless the mood is observed, and the mood was perfect tonight.
I must preface though that I am also reading Jane Austin's original "Pride and Prejudice" in conjunction with viewing the movie this evening. (if my writing style hasn't already given me away). ;) By the by, I must write of a revelation I had while taking in the drama.
I used to think this movie was so sappy and silly and I must admit that quite some time has elapsed since I last saw it, a few years in fact. I used to think of this movie as nothing but a fairy tale that would never come true, yet I stand corrected. I witnessed tonight a love that I believe God put a desire in all us women since the beginning of time. A love based on integrity, honor, respect, and goodness of character; which in turn evolved into passion for one another.
In our current culture, relationships tend to skip all of the above and are based solely on passion, which in turn evolves into a form of impurity as each involved grows more and more obsessed with the other, making them each an idol to one another.
It is not until Elizabeth learns of Darcy's integrity as a man, the honor that he holds amongst his peers, and the utter respect he offers Elizabeth through out the story- even after she declines his hand in marriage the first time around; that she even begins to fall in love with him, let alone be remotely interested in him.
Where are our women who wont even consider a man until she knows his full character? I myself do not pretend to of fallen ill of this slip of the female heart, but in this moment, I feel God has given me great clarity on the matter. What an astounding display of love based on what truly matters. It is this love that I seek in my life, and I refuse to believe it to be a fairy tale. I am talking about true romance, which I am fully aware that I have with my sweet Savior already, but this post is being used tonight as a manifestation of my trust in Him, that He can bring this kind of love, because He is the author of it.
Now I must interject that I am not writing about a love that eludes hardship and problems, but of a love based on the Lord, on purity and everything that Jesus Christ stands for. For everything He died for on that cross, that we may experience His love and experience it abundantly. It is this kind of love that Jesus wants for each of us. One that protects, one that trusts and is trustworthy, one that honors the Lord in all aspects in both public and behind closed doors, one that aims to do good for the other instead of for themselves. Praise the Lord for scripting something so beautiful since before the beginning of time.
I am resolved to settle for nothing less than this love that God has so beautifully crafted with His own adoring hands.
Until inspiration hits me again...
Lovingly,
Kate
Monday, November 23, 2009
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
september
struggling today.
I know you others out there must feel the same way at some point, so maybe you'll understand.
Sometimes its hard to find my way back to Jesus' feet. My blinded eyes hold me captive to things of this world. Things that dont matter. I have Jesus. He fills the empty places of my heart, if only I'll let Him. All it takes is for me to let go. When I let go of my control, He always catches me.
I cant shake this feeling that Im meant to do something, SOMETHING bigger than myself, and its probably scary as all get out.
Sometimes life is hard.
Its all worth it in the end.
We just have to keep running the race set before us.
Oh Jesus help me persevere through this time.
- Kate
I know you others out there must feel the same way at some point, so maybe you'll understand.
Sometimes its hard to find my way back to Jesus' feet. My blinded eyes hold me captive to things of this world. Things that dont matter. I have Jesus. He fills the empty places of my heart, if only I'll let Him. All it takes is for me to let go. When I let go of my control, He always catches me.
I cant shake this feeling that Im meant to do something, SOMETHING bigger than myself, and its probably scary as all get out.
Sometimes life is hard.
Its all worth it in the end.
We just have to keep running the race set before us.
Oh Jesus help me persevere through this time.
- Kate
Monday, August 17, 2009
Proverbs 3:5-6
So i realized something as I looked at this blog tonight.... I dont think i have ever explained why my blog is titled "Proverbs 3:5-6."
Well its a tried and true verse, thats for sure. I could of put up some Bible verse that is really cool and that no one has thought of- sure there are plenty of those. But honestly, the only reason I made it my title is because when i went to type something in.....it was the only thing i could think of. =)
Its funny because at that exact moment-every clever saying, phrase, Bible verse i know...well it was all gone- poof! And nothing was left except for Proverbs 3:5-6. I guess perhaps that's because this verse had been on my mind in light of my current "no direction" of life. I feel now as though God is slowly revealing it to me. I know that I wouldn't be happy doing any other life's work than working for the Lord. And by that i mean I want to passionately pursue Jesus in every aspect of my life. :) And although Im not quite sure what that looks like right now, Jesus knows the way. He always does.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight."
Proverbs 3:5-6
Seeking the Heart of God,
Kate
Well its a tried and true verse, thats for sure. I could of put up some Bible verse that is really cool and that no one has thought of- sure there are plenty of those. But honestly, the only reason I made it my title is because when i went to type something in.....it was the only thing i could think of. =)
Its funny because at that exact moment-every clever saying, phrase, Bible verse i know...well it was all gone- poof! And nothing was left except for Proverbs 3:5-6. I guess perhaps that's because this verse had been on my mind in light of my current "no direction" of life. I feel now as though God is slowly revealing it to me. I know that I wouldn't be happy doing any other life's work than working for the Lord. And by that i mean I want to passionately pursue Jesus in every aspect of my life. :) And although Im not quite sure what that looks like right now, Jesus knows the way. He always does.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight."
Proverbs 3:5-6
Seeking the Heart of God,
Kate
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Example: Yesterday
OK just to give you a little example of what I'm dealing with here people- I'll give you the highlights from yesterday.....
-Was a witness to the signing of a living will (quite sad)
- Walked into a room to minister an elderly lady and found her completely naked laying on her bed- asleep, mouth open. sad and yet, a little funny ( no worries, I covered her up.) :)
-Was talking to a different lady when she had to go to the bathroom, the nurse came in and the next thing I know, the lady's pants are off...
---> sometimes I just wish there was someone else with me during the day to share in the randomness that happens all around me.
oh, and I definitely have a new and HUGE appreciation for nurses and doctors. I know I would get used to a lot of this, if I was either, but I'm not and this is all new for me. I do know one thing though, this whole experience is definitely growing me.
I recently helped a child at a youth retreat when he tore open his foot. While everyone was in a panic I ran to him, scooped him up, and cleaned and bandaged the wound myself! He obviously needed stitches and while I am not a suture (did I spell this correctly?!) kind of girl, I think I packed the wound quite nicely :)
I'd like to think I work well under pressure...and perhaps children's feet as they gush blood. (Sorry to be graphic for those of you who get a little queasy. )
Wondering what else I will encounter this summer....
-Kate
-Was a witness to the signing of a living will (quite sad)
- Walked into a room to minister an elderly lady and found her completely naked laying on her bed- asleep, mouth open. sad and yet, a little funny ( no worries, I covered her up.) :)
-Was talking to a different lady when she had to go to the bathroom, the nurse came in and the next thing I know, the lady's pants are off...
---> sometimes I just wish there was someone else with me during the day to share in the randomness that happens all around me.
oh, and I definitely have a new and HUGE appreciation for nurses and doctors. I know I would get used to a lot of this, if I was either, but I'm not and this is all new for me. I do know one thing though, this whole experience is definitely growing me.
I recently helped a child at a youth retreat when he tore open his foot. While everyone was in a panic I ran to him, scooped him up, and cleaned and bandaged the wound myself! He obviously needed stitches and while I am not a suture (did I spell this correctly?!) kind of girl, I think I packed the wound quite nicely :)
I'd like to think I work well under pressure...and perhaps children's feet as they gush blood. (Sorry to be graphic for those of you who get a little queasy. )
Wondering what else I will encounter this summer....
-Kate
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
The Trouble with Internships
Ok so today it was REALLY hard to get up and go to my internship this morning. Its just very difficult to go talk to people in their hospital beds sometimes...you never know what you're going to get and Jesus is repeatedly showing me that the hardest to love are the ones that need love the most.
It takes all my spiritual, physical and emotional energy to go up to my floor some days and all my energy to just keep me going into each individual room. I think I'm learning everyday that Jesus did some amazing things when He made Himself unclean for the sake of others healing the sick and raising the dead. He saw past their physical illness to their more important problems- their souls. Jesus was the ultimate doctor and healer.
Also, I would like it if my brother would come home soon- the house is eerily quiet and I'm finding myself making up excuses to leave...it would just be nice to not be an only child for awhile.
Praying God gives me grace to make it through this long day!
~Kate
It takes all my spiritual, physical and emotional energy to go up to my floor some days and all my energy to just keep me going into each individual room. I think I'm learning everyday that Jesus did some amazing things when He made Himself unclean for the sake of others healing the sick and raising the dead. He saw past their physical illness to their more important problems- their souls. Jesus was the ultimate doctor and healer.
Also, I would like it if my brother would come home soon- the house is eerily quiet and I'm finding myself making up excuses to leave...it would just be nice to not be an only child for awhile.
Praying God gives me grace to make it through this long day!
~Kate
Friday, June 19, 2009
Carpe Diem
Recently I have been mulling over the phrase " seize the day" and I was thinking to myself- what does that look like, how do you "seize the day?"
Scenes from "Dead Poet's Society" immediately began to play in my head. Robin Williams is eerily whispering the phrase over and over again, thoroughly creeping the young high school boys out (not to hate on one of the best movies ever created!)
And then it hit me right there during my class this morning (we were talking about death and the dying) to be able to fully "seize the day" you must imagine your last day...sounds strange but keep with me. You have to ask yourself, "If I was to die today- what would i regret not doing?" and then do it. That's how you seize the day.
Just a thought process I had. I think I would regret not telling everyone I see about Jesus. Sometimes I want to shout at the top of my lungs about His grace and love and power. I wonder what someone would do if began energetically shouting at them about the love of God?! haha!
What would you regret not doing?
Also, I was asked yesterday if I was 12 years old......and I politely told them NO.
-Kate
Scenes from "Dead Poet's Society" immediately began to play in my head. Robin Williams is eerily whispering the phrase over and over again, thoroughly creeping the young high school boys out (not to hate on one of the best movies ever created!)
And then it hit me right there during my class this morning (we were talking about death and the dying) to be able to fully "seize the day" you must imagine your last day...sounds strange but keep with me. You have to ask yourself, "If I was to die today- what would i regret not doing?" and then do it. That's how you seize the day.
Just a thought process I had. I think I would regret not telling everyone I see about Jesus. Sometimes I want to shout at the top of my lungs about His grace and love and power. I wonder what someone would do if began energetically shouting at them about the love of God?! haha!
What would you regret not doing?
Also, I was asked yesterday if I was 12 years old......and I politely told them NO.
-Kate
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Top Ten Things I have Learned from My Internship (Thus Far)
*for all you non-medical/hospital people out there.
1.) You walk the same day you have knee replacement surgery
2.) If someone is screaming from a room...dont walk in there to see if they need any help- contrary to popular belief. :)
3.) Dont get into a deep theological discussion with a man who is doped up on morphine
4.) If someone asks you if you want to see their gun shot wound...just say no
5.) When it comes to infectious diseases, use hand sanitizer whether you think you need it or not
6.) Dont give too many blood thinners to an elderly lady or her foot will turn black
7.) Dont take an online class while doing an internship....its not fun
8.) You can make drugs using a loaf of bread and shoe polish
9.) Sometimes its ok to have a concealed weapon on you
10.) Dont give meal tickets to people who are not wearing any pants.
- did not make some of these mistakes, other interns helped me write this one. haha :)
-Kate
1.) You walk the same day you have knee replacement surgery
2.) If someone is screaming from a room...dont walk in there to see if they need any help- contrary to popular belief. :)
3.) Dont get into a deep theological discussion with a man who is doped up on morphine
4.) If someone asks you if you want to see their gun shot wound...just say no
5.) When it comes to infectious diseases, use hand sanitizer whether you think you need it or not
6.) Dont give too many blood thinners to an elderly lady or her foot will turn black
7.) Dont take an online class while doing an internship....its not fun
8.) You can make drugs using a loaf of bread and shoe polish
9.) Sometimes its ok to have a concealed weapon on you
10.) Dont give meal tickets to people who are not wearing any pants.
- did not make some of these mistakes, other interns helped me write this one. haha :)
-Kate
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Still figuring things out
still tryin to figure out how to set everything on this blog.
praise God i'm graduating in a year!
Life lesson from today's sermon: God's will for my life is much greater and scarier- but so worth it compared to my will for my life.
Am I truly doing what God is calling me to do, right now?
Trying to surrender,
~Kate
praise God i'm graduating in a year!
Life lesson from today's sermon: God's will for my life is much greater and scarier- but so worth it compared to my will for my life.
Am I truly doing what God is calling me to do, right now?
Trying to surrender,
~Kate
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Brand new blog
SO i've been using this old blog for awhile and i thought it would be good to start my own finally. I dont blog often so no one should get too attached to this BUT when i do blog it means i have something to say......which i guess means i dont often have much to say....haha. In the words of a patient I work for: "You can only do the best you can and nothing else."
~Kate
~Kate
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